the smell of freedom...at last!

pre-warning: it's going to be an all-jumbled up post. to make up for the time loss. hehe.

i praise the Lord for all that He has done and blessed me with! let me be honest, it has not been an easy 3 weeks, at least not as easy as i expected it to be...but i praise the Lord for all He has done! He's really amazing...and He has blessed me in so many different ways. i could feel His presence with me at all times, guiding me and leading me...speechless!

i thank my lovely parents too! without them, i'd have broken down half-way through. they have been superbly supportive, loving...in short, they were my pillars of strength. papa and mie went all the way out for me, sacrificing on their sleep even when they are really tired. mie even fell sick....(i'm so sorry) but mommy, if you're reading, (oh yeah, there was one fine day when my mom decided to take a peak into my blog...boy, i was in a bundle of nerves..haha), i just want to let you know that i really really really appreciate all that you all have done for me...and i really love u! thank u so much! and i hope i'll make you proud! (i always do, don't i? hehe) Praise the Lord!

and just in case you were wondering, yeah, i've finished sitting for all of my 8 papers...God's grace is sufficient for me....i hope i did well...and i shall not be commenting further.....trusting in the Lord in each step that i take....

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guess what? the supposingly "biggest aeon mall in southeast asia" is opened and it's like only a 7- minute walk away from my place! now how convenient is that? n how it's made life so much easier for me???lol.... i've been there 3 times thus far...in between exams (glees happily)...and i got really excited when i heard that mng, g2000, guess, padini concept store, and many other favourites were coming into Klang....lolx....i guess it's upgraded the lifestyle of klangites....

but it's pretty sad and embarassing i'd say, cos the mentality of klangites is pretty much still the same, the toilets are wet and dirty, you see dirty marks on the floor, etc, etc....it's sad....no, it's pathetic.

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i am so going to miss my dad and my brother....and my 2 cutiepies......awwww!!!! i'm like torn apart....one part of me is so excited...and another part of me is crushed. 8 weeks without my babies? what would life be? sighz......and i bet mommy will leave me in tears on new year's day! what a way to usher in the new year! lolx.... u'll noe what i'm talking about soon! i shall not reveal it yet...

oh wait, to make it up to all of you (i hope people still read, or i'll have to do some advertising d) i will come up with a video of my dogs.......just hold on k...i'll hv to figure out how to upload it...anyone care to help? miss mean ee???? *hint hint* i'm pretty sure u're reading....
(p/s: my babie!!!! get a cbox la for gdness sake? or else how to communicate??? leaving comments is so me-mafan-kan!)

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on a side note, putting on weight has its advantages too you know? hehe....really!!!! i'm quite glad that i've piled on a bit of those kilos...teehee :)

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oh and today marks the last time i'll have to:
*dress in my school uniform
*tie my hair to school
*drive that same route which i've been taking every day for a couple of years
*fight for parking spaces in front of the school
*walk into SMKTAR (no wait, i still have to collect my results, etc)
*wear school shoes (my dad even asked me if i wanted to throw them away? NO!)
*wake up so early in the morning to attend assemblies (bla.....what a way to start the morning?)
*listen to those unreasonable teachers nagging and bla-ing during assembly)
*seeing faces that you don't want to see.....especially not the first thing in the morning
*no more dirty, smelly school toilets, which are all wet and yucky

but i must admit that i've grown up a lot...after this morning's paper, i had some extra time for some deep thoughts....i've indeed grown.

when i finished upsr, i was running around the entire school compound, shouting merdeka (i was so ignorant then!), shooting those bullets from staplers (goodness! *smacks forehead*), playing with water and getting all wet, then start blaming each other and say "aiya, i didn't want to get wet wan lo" (i lied, i always enjoyed getting wet, the wetter, the better...hehe)

after pmr, i shouted 'merdeka' too....i still played with water...but i no longer shoot bullets (considered grown rite? rite?)

after spm, i still shouted merdeka, threatened to play with water but didn't because i decided to go home to meet mom and get her to bring me shopping....hehe...

now 2 years later, i didn't bother to shout merdeka, instead with my happy face, i went around hugging everybody and wishing them all the best, bidding goodbye, and at the same time, promising to meet up again.....(big big difference eh?)

and another thing, i realised that after i left MIF, i no longer enjoyed playing with water...in fact, i abstain...and this time i really mean it okay? i really dun wanna get wet! hehe....
now the moral of the story is....I'VE GROWN UP!!!!

mommy should be very happy to hear this...after all, her daughter can still fit into the same tee she wore when she was ten years younger (and it's still loose)....and mommy says, "now, that's sad"...lols

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wait, i forgot to wish myself a "HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY". yours truly is now 19....nineteen wei....big big girl already....hehe...

i'd a simple celebration this year...i insisted that i didn't want something grand because i was so into my books that time (imagine having to prepare for your biology paper which is scheduled for tomorrow early morning when it's ur bday? big turnoff rite?)

but i'd a few suprises...my cg bought me a gift and a cake and sang happy birthday when i was in church....that was really thoughtful...thank you so much....i'll visit you all soon, but not this friday ya...maybe when i get back, i'll drop by.....thank you again!

and a couple of friends got me some nice gifts this year, i really never expected anything cos i've been really bad this year, i never got anyone gifts...lols....and someone even promised me lunch after his exams *hint hint*

now, now, i better stop here...i'll update again...maybe tomorrow...
it's a real long one......a really really long one....
anyway, don't blame me...i did warn you!

EDIT: i tried uploading the video, it took me more than 30 mins and it still didn't work...min, help!

our PRIDE

~Dr. Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor~

i was never really sure if i was proud to be a malaysian until a couple of days ago.

i was so excited that malaysia was sending her very first cosmonaut into space (not space tourist okay?) and she's the fourth country to do so! how proud is that? VERY!!!!

and, and, he's so good looking! he's like super dashing and he's got that everyone's dreamguy's look! the looks okay? not the religion....lolx...

but i'm praying hard that God will reveal Himself to him in His very own special ways...

it was wednesday night...

i quickly ate my dinner, cleaned up, then went upstairs and got my eyes glued to the "idiot box". i was like watching the program with such anticipation and uncontrollable excitement, i knew for sure i was proud to be part of Malaysia. and when Soyuz TMA-11 blast off from Baikonur Cosmodrome at 9.22 pm, my heart was pounding so fast i could hardly believe it. i watched the whole program until the very end (including those boring talks). i probably woudn't have watch it with that much of anticipation if it was that faiz guy..lolx...talking about being biased. i guess hot looks does sell.

indeed, malaysia is now a few inches taller....(quoting DPM)

i'm proud of her and all her achievements...
i'm looking forward to watching the docking in ISS tonight.

and to those out there who are still sceptical about the whole thing, thinking it's a waste of taxpayer's money, think again. in that case, then, we don't see a need for KLIA, for Sepang F1 circuit, for twin towers, for KL tower....might as well just remain in our respective kampungs and etc. it's all about creating history....for bringing our country to greater heights and acheiving more for the country...to me, it's money worth spending. lolx...i know i've not contributed to paying tax yet.

all the best, sheikh! praying for your safety! and i thank God for Malaysia and may the Lord continue to bless Malaysia greatly!

gotta go...a wedding to attend soon.

don't ask me why people get married on fridays....i'm still figuring that out.

and btw, i've one week of break! yippie...not really actually, cos i know i'll be nerding most of the time... and now, more pictures of him. oh, did i mention that i read every single news and article on this space mission. lolz....like from the beginning to the end.

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something tickled me, i was saying bye to my uncle just now.
then he said, "Shin Hui, when you get into university start looking for a boyfriend."

my dad was just beside me when he quipped, "now's not the right time"

then my uncle said, "form four, form five don't get a boyfriend. don't get those 'chipalang' ones. wasting time only when you deserve so much better ones." and my immediate response was "Don't tell me, tell them...i'm still safe" lolx.... it was that 'chipalang' word that got me all tickled up. it's so true especially if you were in my place, and you saw that "face" you so love seeing....teehee (read that with the greatest degree of sarcasm that you have)

p/s: i can't help but to look away everytime i see that face of hers. it just makes me so sick. and how i wish you're reading this! gimme a break please....you're not GREAT at all!!! so don't put up a show for yourself and elevate yourself to a position that is not even meant for you....not to forget, it does not even exist there for you..

i'm not mean okay? she's the "meanest". you have no idea how shallow she is and how "yucky" and desperate she is....enough said!!!! God forgive me!

God's grace

My trials are officially over for now. A few friends commented that i'd probably be enjoying myself and partying away..but in contradictory, the nerding session has just begin.
yeah, trials are over but the actual finals are like bout 6 weeks away, which is really just a passing moment. time really really flies and it flies by so quickly, i sometimes get left behind. and it abandons me, leaving me to pick up with my pace. but fret not, because God is always beside me and i trust in Him to lift me up and carry me when the path gets tougher and poses more challenges.

i know this is very emo-ish but i really can't help it. the more time i spend in class, the more heavy i feel deep inside of me. like i've mentioned in previous posts, the entire class is very much closely united and especially in my case, i can just pull a joke on anyone, including the most quiet person in class. it's like even when pressure was increasing (the past few days), it was still fun to be with all of them. i must admit though that there are a couple of people that i am not really fond of, but all in all, it's a great class to be in. and this reassures me that God works for the good of those who love Him. it's amazing how God works in ways that the human mind cannot comprehend. God's grace is indeed sufficient, or should i say abundant for me!

by the way, Goldie is up and bouncing, playing away and ruining things once again. it's nice to see a wagging tail-ed dog greeting you everytime you get home.

i've got a lot to say, but i guess this should do for now.

~licia~

Miscellaneous

it's a jumbled-up post....because it's been soooooooo long!
i was browsing through my previous posts....i realised a pretty big difference.
i think i used to write more meaningful stuffs back then when i was a noobie blogger. hehehe
i feel that the more recent posts (which are not that recent at all) are more of "nothings" hehe...

okay....and i want to apologise for not updating for like more than a month. i've been really really busy with exams and lotsa other stuffs...to the extend of not coming online that often too. it's been a nerdy world there...hehe...

and i don't foresee myself blogging that often in the next couple of months because i ought to be studying even harder by then...but fret not my dear readers, i foresee myself blogging a whole lot after my finals especially the period when i'll be away from home...teehee....

oh....and thank you so much for coming by and reading my "nothings"... thank you for the support....huggies from me!!!

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even as i'm sitting here typing away, my poor goldie's like a metre's away all sad and gloomy...she's not feeling well apparently and it breaks my heart to see her not being able to enjoy life like a happy bouncy labrador. get well soon, my love!!!! i want to be able to play and roll around with you in the garden, to be able to hold your hands and pretend that we are dancing in the moonlight....hehe....i want to be able to pull your ears and spin you around without having to fear that i'll further injure or hurt you.....i want to see my "fei poh" doing the things she normally enjoys doing. don't ask me what's wrong with her...i really do not know.

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have you ever done something and then regret later? i guessed many of us have had such feelings before....worse still, have you done something which the people around you tells you it wasn't right and yet you have no regrets for doing what you've done? i guessed that has happened before too huh?

i did something which my conscience kept telling me it wasn't proper....yet after the whole ordeal, i wasn't mad at myself for not listening to my heart. i did regret my actions although i felt bad for the other party....okay, i don't want to go into the details....i shall therefore end abruptly.

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as i was reminiscing upon the past, i realised that in the past one year, i've learn to accept people in spite of the differences that we have. and trust me, some of these people are really really "different"...not that they are handicapped or whatsoever but the methods by which they do things really differ from the methods by which many of us use.

i went into form six and was put in a class which i did not like in the first place. most of my friends were in the first class. (random fact about me : i was never (note: NEVER) placed in the first class in my entire high school life even if i was suppose to be one of the top students) but don't get me wrong, i am not bothered about that...in fact, i don't like to be in the first class..there's just too much pressure.

so back to the story, i wasn't happy about being separated from my friends and making new ones (i can be pretty unfriendly at times). to make matters worse, i'd 3 classmates, all whose names starts with the letter "j" (was it mere coincidence) who shares something in common....their weirdness. i shall not reveal their names in order to protect their identity. but i shall label them as boy #1, boy #2 and girl #3.

my first impressions of them wasn't a very pleasant one. in fact, i was wondering what it would be like having to share a class with them for 18 months....haha...
but one of my friends challenged me....he said i bet with you in a month's time, you'll start having a better impression of him. i accepted his challenge, being very confident that i would win.

let me be a little more detailed. boy #1 makes funny animal noices, his actions are very much disturbing, he gets very nervous at little little things, rubs his hands and legs and....(the extra details are too gruesome to be even mentioned) boy #2 is very much girlish....and girl #3 was everyone's nightmare when she first walked into class.. she asks very disturbing questions...questions you'll never be able to answer and gives you that very intimidating look as if she were to stab you in your abdomen at any one time if you were to give her an answer not pleasing to her.....pretty nightmarish right? i'm not exaggerating okay, ask any 6AS2ian....and they'll give you the same answers.

but as time passes, i realised that they may be slightly different from me, yet they are created in God's image and God loves them just as much as He loves me. and without realising, i began to accept them for who they were, emphasising on their strengths instead of their weaknesses. and now, they are like my very close friends. in fact, the entire class is very much united in spite of our diverse backgrounds, beliefs, stands and views. we are like one big happy family and it's really nice because you go to class everyday looking forward to spending time together. it makes lessons more exciting, humourous and fun. there's no racial segregation in 6AS2...it just simply does not exist.

yeah....and God has taught me an important lesson. to love everyone as He has first loved me. and that means to accept and to show our christian love to everyone alike. and He has also reminded me to trust in Him despite of not knowing what lies ahead because He always has the best in store for me! thank you Lord! i love You and always will! and i want to live my life for Your glory....gimme grace, mercy and strength.

God bless all of you peeps....
i'll try to share a little on the Methodist Prayer Convention the next time which in case you weren't there or didn't know, it was awesomely awesome! we are to be blessings to the people around us and to the nation! Amen!

so long, farewell, buhbye!

my babies..

the long awaited post is finally here....
this is something i'm very passionate about

i can go on talking about my dogs for hours if no one stops me...

that's how mad i am about my doggies

goldie's the whitish (supposingly, yellow) labrador retriever

and tasha's the brownish puppy i adopted a year ago.

my family and i were crazy about dogs....

we started hunting everywhere for one....

and only one condition : it must be a labrador retriever

and so we bought goldie.

i must admit that when we first brought her home, she was really ugly

but none mentioned that aloud until a couple of months later

we wanted her so much eventhough she was so ugly,

said nothing about her looks at the pet shop and insisted that we bring her home.

but i can proudly say that my goldie is now a pretty doggie

(and in case you were wondering, yeah they are both females)

who never fails to attract people when i take her out for evening walks at the park

and people never fail to praise her

u should also see how she fetches in the air...

i'm not bragging, but Goldie's really intelligent, really bright, really smart

(in fact, she's too smart...she sometimes outsmarts me)

she always frees tasha from her crate...she knows how to unlock the crate..now how smart is that?

and she's a real poser...she loves baths, loves combing hair, loves getting her spa treatment and loves being pampered....she's really attached to the family and loves being with the family wherever they are.....

when we were away for holidays, our neighbour mentioned that she wouldn't eat and woudn't play ball....and was sulking all the time.....she must have been wondering why we abandoned her....how could i, my darling? i dunno how i'll take it when age catches up with you and when you leave me? it'll be like losing my childhood friend....the baby whom i nurse back to health when she falls ill...

and what about tasha?
she's a mongrel of unknown and indistinct ancestry, born with the curse of uncertain lineage, one of the tens of thousands of unwated dogs in malaysia. Yet by some stroke of almost providential good fortune, she became wanted. She came into my life, and I into hers - and brought me lotsa joy....

i followed my mom to the market one fateful day and saw a cute lil puppy 6 inches long...with big eyes....and i begged to take her home.

she's a super bright dog....she was already potty-trained when i brought her home....

and i defended her when she dug holes in the garden, when she ruined all my mom's potted plants....i was very determined to keep her....and i shed many tears back then....to gain my parents' approval in keeping her

i trained her myself and gave her all the love she needed....and i can proudly announce that she's very well behaved except for the occasional digging....u should take a look at my garden, it has all sort of shapes of holes and all sorts of sizes of patches.

she's very protective of us....and is very fierce and hostile to any strangers or dogs. a very unfriendly girl i'd say.

and she's also win the hearts of my parents.....she's well-loved now....

very recently, she was sent to the vet's to be spayed....when i went to bring her home and saw her, my heart nearly popped out. she was so weak and look so sickly. she'd lots of phlegm in her and was making a lot of sickly noices which made me cry. i was so afraid that i'll lose her then...
i cancelled all my activities and rushed home from school everyday to nurse her.
gave her medicines, gave her fresh milk to drink, made chicken soup for her...

only then did i realise that she meant that much to me....

after all, i was the one who brought her home and took care of her...loved her and played with her....

i take pride in both my dogs...

goldie is 2 1/2 years old whereas tasha is 1 year plus..( i dunno her exact date of birth)

i hope i'll still have a decade to spend with them...
i love them to bits and to me, they are family...
my brother and i gave them chinese names too...that matches ours...teehee :)

i thank God for them...eventhough at times, they do drive me up the wall and misbehaved

but i guess they've taught me a lot about life too....
and most importantly, brought lotsa joy and laughter to our family...
we truly adore them....

i miss them to bits whenever i'm away....
i love my dogs!!!!

more pics below:

(btw, goldie's a real poser)

it's taking way too long to download the images...so this will do for now...

hopefully, you don't get bored and restless reading this post

i forgot to mention that dogs are highly therapeutic....and they are very sensitive towards people's feelings....when i'm sad and down, they sense it and comes very near me and sits next to me...it's their way of comforting people.

and when they see me angry, they run away!!! lolx...

such adorable creatures....

i love trees

i'm a self-proclaimed environmentalist!!!
haha...i wanna play my lil role in protecting and conserving the environment
but i'll still drive my SLK around town....
i'll still buy groceries and take them home in tesco plastic bags
but...
i won't litter
i will try not to waste water
i love trees!!!!
and ppl, love the trees too k?
(okie...i sounded so bimbo0ish there)

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i'll just continue using green...tribute to the environment
i started to blog because i'd so much to say then...
but didn't have the time to....
now that i have a wee lil bit of time....
i dunno what to say....
i dunno what to write about.....
maybe another emo post....

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more than a year has passed since i last enrolled into form 6
i initially enrolled with very high hopes of getting out
unfortunately, it never happened
and i can testify that form 6 is indeed really tough
not much regrets....
i kinda enjoy school nowadays
a lot has happened...
many things have changed
things changed too
and yeah, i changed a lot too
i guess it's a transition period for me...and i learnt a lot
not just about the surroundings, but also about myself
i made lotsa friends....and a couple of besties whom i truly cherish
and what's left is only a few couple of months...and everyone will be walking their separate ways again....
don't ask me why i wrote this...i guess it's pointless...
teehee....
i initially wanted to talk about something her but i've decided against it now...

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a pretty long while

it's been really really long....
and plenty has happened since the last time i wrote.
in fact, many things have changed....
people changed too....

but i just wanna thank God for His faithfulness
for His love
for His grace
for His goodness
and His mercy!!!
cos i'm doing just great!!!

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okie....let's see....u may be wondering what have i been up to....
in the past couple of days,
*i took a really long ride to a place i've never been to before
*i kept seeing green my entire time there
*i'd to prepare a speech and a presentation (which was really stressful when u hv a whole lot of other things to do)
*got bitten by 3 leeches
*was bleeding non-stop the whole night
*had a bed to sleep on but chose to sleep on the hard timber flooring instead
*wore slippers for jungle-trekking
*saw "crown-shyness" which was awesome
*had no choice but to wear short shorts to sleep and then woke up and took a morning walk in the cold, cold morning
*bathed in icy-cold water (not exaggerating) at 12am

lolx...

in the past week,
*i'd been really cranky and uptight
*people were getting on my nerves all the time (or maybe i was the one getting on ppl's nerves)
*had lotsa arguments and misunderstandings
*emo-ed a lot
(but....i didn't just get angry for no reason k?things actually happen and they got me annoyed, alright?)
*but at the end of the day, everything is cleared....
n btw, it's not that time of the month, k? dun come up with your own conclusions